Living On Credit

"I'm tired, do me a favour and do it yourself. Please?

Why should I convince you of anything when experience has tried and finally taught me that my efforts unaccompanied by someone else's will not be exchanged for love and happiness. What I say shouldn't make you want to be here it's all about what you feel. If I didn't bring to beyond valleys of lustre and warmth then fill the can with your two cents.
Do it fast cause there's depreciation and inflation."

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I am March Poptart cover girl.
HAHAHA. Cheap thrills really.

Cause Our Older Siblings Did It

I met with the ex-band mates today. For beer, laughter and WTFOMGASM. I love how I used to be able to see these people everyday and we would trade play-lists all the time and spend hours on messenger sending each other songs. I love that we still kept the "Faiz, is a chao chee bye; mother fucking chao chee bye"-so-call-punk/moshcore-original from way back.

Aliff was trying to convince us to get tattoos on our 21st birthdays respectively. His idea has great sentimental depth in it and I wish I could have that. Meanwhile I think I really am going to go ahead and get the uncertainty equation inked. I've always said that Heisenberg managed to sum up my life in that one equation anyway. It's pretty nerdy but I love physics anyway. Then if it gets addictive I'll probably do one of my parents' names.

Oh the Nobellers want to have a come back! HAPPINESS IS ME.

Japan-The Strange Country

Japan-The Strange Country (English ver.) from Kenichi on Vimeo.

This is my final thesis project. I created info-graphic, motion piece. My objective is to make Japanese people to think about that everything happening here in Japan, isn't that normal. So I created this video from foreigner's point of view, rather than Japanese people's point of view.

I love how this explains the queerness of Japanese people with its infographics and mind-blowing research and facts. Check out his other videos too, they're pretty interesting and the Shape Experiment is pretty trippy.

L4D2 Fashion?

Shot gun loving zombie killers do you recognise this?

Shorewood Lip Dub

Me and my obsession with lip dubs recently. The making of the video is really interesting to watch too!

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Mum, Dad and I went out together to get more lighting for the new house. It felt good to be sitting at the back of Dad's new (to me but not too new) Mercedes and listen to them speak in dialects which I still have little clue of. It felt like the old times.

Simplify Legal Terms

I've mentioned time and again how much I absolutely detest my law lecturer. She's a drama teacher wanna-be in a pudgy body, equipped with an obliviously loud voice and is absolutely self-absorbed. She loves talking about herself. And, how oh how she ruined law for me.

Thank God I've become friends with one of the customers at Caesars who has become very much like a brother (he's the age of my brother) and gives me a crash course with my list of law questions every time I present my notebook to him. Thank you Eugene Tan.

What I don't understand about law is why is there a need for complexity in it. All classic cases have evolved from stories from the past in fact most classic cases are all from the simplest stories of disagreement and argument. Why is it we have turned it into such a chore to read and understand? It doesn't take complexity to draft an agreement, it just requires someone with expressive and good English. Lawyers today have a tendency to over analyze (in and out of work) thanks to this belief that law must be complex and untouchable.

Shouldn't all laws and regulations readily understood by the public?I don't want the lawyers to lose their jobs of course but what about the prospect that with simplicity there's the empowerment of the people.

But I leave you with my favourite law phrase which I keep using recently. "Ultra vires": beyond the legal power or authority of a person or official or body etc.
Which I apparently keep using for anything and everything.

Street Lamps And I

I spent a lonely Saturday with myself. The start was bad and I wanted to go out so much to forget the things around me. So I walked out of the house to get cigarettes and took a long walk and listened to Jeannette talk (and also talk to her dogs). After that I made a few short phone calls to everyone I felt close to.

There's that comforting feeling every time I feel like crap and I make a phone call out of the blue just to ask someone to tell me about his or her day. I don't how and why rather than talking about how I feel or what's going on but listening to someone else just fills my heart up.

Also, the night sky and I had private time. My neighbourhood feels so good every time I walk along her endless rows. The moon passed on a glow, the leaves rustled in the wind and the air smelt like morning dew. Something about those street lamps as well and the sneaky cats mating with each other.

Haven't been quite this alone in awhile and as much as I used to be afraid of it, it doesn't scare me as much no more. Whilst I'm in this nasty nest of complexity and I have different viewpoints to everything I maybe do and do not understand. I am a little disappointed.
However, I can watch a sunset on my own. But if you want to be there sitting with me, sink your feet in the sea and sand with me by the bay, you can call and give a hug before that.

Book List

I haven't done a book review in ages so here's a list of books.

• Superfreakonomics and Freakonomics (you're an idiot if you don't read them) - Steve D. Levitt and Steve J. Dubner
• Elder Gods (I finally got my own copy when my 06 copy got ruined by the then boyfriend) - David Eddings
• Damages - Cathy Glass
• Undead and unwed - Mary J. Davidson
• Unexpected - Lori Foster
• Zoom - Iain Carson and Vijay V. Vaitheeswaran

Merry Happy

Artist: Kate Nash
Track from Album: Made Of Bricks
Here's Kate Nash again, who never ever fails me.

Watching me like you never watch no one | Don't tell me that you didn't try and check out my bum | Cause I know that you did | Cause your friend told me that you liked it
Gave me those pearls and I thought they were ugly | Though you try to tell me that you never loved me | I know that you did | 'Cause you said it and you wrote it down

Dancing at discos | Eating cheese on toast | Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy | But you obviously, you didn't want to stick around
Dancing at discos | Eating cheese on toast | Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy | But you obviously, you didn't want to stick around

So I learnt from you | Do do do da do do do do do da do do do do do da do
So I learnt form you | Do do do da do do do do do da do do do do do da do

I can be alone, yeah | I can watch a sunset on my own | I can be alone, yeah | I can watch a sunset on my own | I can be alone | I can watch a sunset on my own
I can be alone, yeah | I can watch a sunset on my own | I can be alone, yeah | I can watch a sunset on my own | I can be alone | I can watch a sunset on my own

Sitting in restaurants | Thought we were so grown up | But I know now that we were not the people
That we turned out to be

Chatting on the phone | Can't take back those hours | But I won't regret | 'Cause you can grow flowers | From where dirt used to be

Dancing at discos | Eating cheese on toast | Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy | But you obviously, you didn't want to stick around
Dancing at discos | Eating cheese on toast | Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy | But you obviously, you didn't want to stick around

I can be alone, yeah | I can watch a sunset on my own | I can be alone, yeah | I can watch a sunset on my own | I can be alone | I can watch a sunset on my own

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Stolen from Neverlosethatfeeling. At the last poptart. Love Adrian Wee.like.me

Just Different

So we were sitting down having a conversation, repeated questions that have been asked before and rating the probability of what was it that went wrong.

Then an idea was brought upon me that I thought was absolutely absurd. I always thought that the concept of good and bad kisser is a reality and extremely relevant. I've almost always met bad kissers. Too much tongue, no tongue, too sloppy, too slobbery, too short, too long, no hands and peeking eyes.
But maybe not everyone wants to be kissed the same way contrary to my original belief and as all vivid descriptions in novels may seem the same they could also be different slightly and significantly.

Remember

"There's no other feeling like watching a movie and seeing a part of it that reflects your life.
And then you think to yourself how beautiful it is."

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I can't stop staring at this... OMGGGAWD

Secret Love Child

I panicked and rushed down to butter right before the guest-list booth closed. And I got my Fash card or at least I was made the joke of and then got my Fash card. In my huge rush I brought the cocked bottle of wine instead of the screw one. How smart seriously? Thank God the Sake bar at Fullerton opened it for free.

For some odd reason, Poptart today really felt more than awesome.

Oh, Happy birthday JinShun.

University Lipdub

University Lipdub (HS Furtwangen) from DASKAjA on Vimeo.

This is seriously one of the best mass coordinated lip dubbing.

Paper on Medical Tourism

The most layman concept of tourism is to travel out of the borders of locality for relaxation and sightseeing purposes. However today we have many different subcategories for different tourism. Medical tourism is defined as travelling for medicinal and wellness related purposes, modern or traditional; out of an individual's usual inhabited country (not including incidental medical tourism).
It has grown rapidly within the past decade due to the emergence of cheaper western medicine services and alternative wellness programs and treatment mainly in places out of first world countries. According to Bookman and Bookman (2007), in addition to cultural affinity and space, medical tourists also consider the forte offered by an institute or country. There are specialties that are not available at home for some rare invasive or diagnostic procedures.

HISTORY OF MEDICAL TOURISM
Medical tourism has a long and colourful lineage back to 4000 BC where the Sumerians discovered the health properties of mineral rich hot springs and constructed health facilities around the springs. However it was the Greeks brought up the concept of medical tourism. The first recorded instance of medical tourism was credited to the Greek pilgrims having travelled from all over the Mediterranean to a small territory called Epidauria. The Asclepia Temples, which were erected to honour the Greek god of medicine, were some of the world's first health centres. By 300 BC, therapeutic temples had sprung up throughout the Greek domain and as the Roman Empire expanded, people travelled from everywhere to seek treatment in the Mediterranean.
Medical tourism boomed in 16th-century Europe when the elite rediscovered Roman baths treating diseases such as gout to liver disorders and bronchitis. The word "spa," which comes from the Roman phrase “salude per aqua" which means health through waters, began to be popularized around this time by wellness facilities which did not practice traditional clinical medicine. Meanwhile mineral springs in Japan called onsen have been popular for their healing properties with travellers for 1000 years. India has been visited by a constant stream of health travellers seeking to heal themselves through alternative medicine since the practice of yoga gained popularity 5000 years ago.
Today medical tourism has risen to a household phrase due to high costs and long waiting list in domestic countries; new technology and better medical education in destination countries accompanied by easy research process and low cost travelling have contributed much to its growing market.

POPULARISATION OF MEDICAL TOURISM IN ASIA
Asia is one of the most popular region for medical tourism for several reasons ranging from obvious affordability, cultural reflection that has resulted in specialization for certain procedures and a chance to part take in other relaxation activities during recovery.
Thailand was originally began its medical tourism incidentally due to its renowned sex-change procedures. It later moved onto cosmetic surgery and sought out for the Japanese market since even though cosmetic surgery is highly applauded in Japan and neighbouring Korea, services there are too expensive. There is also a trend for foreigners to undergo sex-change operations overseas since the recuperation and consolidation of a new identity may be better experienced at a distance from daily life according to Connel. This other plus point proves to be very noteworthy since the sex change patients would be less prone to experiencing harsh disapproval and would not experience remorse in making this life changing decision. This avoidance of emotional stress has a large significance to their recovery.
India has a substantial part of the medical tourism market even though it may not seem to have a unique specialization compared to its counter parts. Instead, India has its medical procedures coupled with alternative aftercare wellness treatments. These treatments include traditional massages, yoga and spiritual fulfilment. Their wide spread use of English have appealed to especially the English whilst their links to its widely acclaimed Information Technology (IT) industry has also helped them with their advertising.
Singapore unlike its other counterparts is not a developing nation and thus may have higher prices for such procedures. Instead it competes on quality rather than price and stresses upon its superior technology. Most of the private hospitals in Singapore are participating in the medical tourism program. Some of these hospitals have also received international health accreditation from the Joint Commission International of the US (Lee, 2009). Singapore has also carried out many “firsts” such as the complicated procedure of the separation of a pair of Siamese twins and carried out the first heart transplant in South East Asia (Sivathasan, 2009); attaining significant reputation in the medical field worldwide.

SUSTAINABILITY TRAITS OF INDUSTRY
It is important to note that sustainability of medical tourism may seem to be based on the demand and supply however there are many other aspects to consider. Apart from the steady flow of medical tourists who are encouraged to go overseas for treatments due to its domestic push factors. What makes this type of tourism so sustainable is its reuse and bouncing off of foreign income generated into the local society, which readily allows the host country to keep up with the pressures of the growing industry directly and indirectly.
Institutions must ensure that money generated is used to help the infrastructure of the locals, thus giving them opportunities to better their lives. Just because the costs of medical procedures are low that should not mean that employees of host countries should receive the same amount of wages due to the higher demand which allows institutions to price services slightly higher. There must be a fair ratio between the profit generated and the wages of employees. For example India’s hospitals are improving in physical condition and the salaries of all medical employees have generally risen over the years. This is a noteworthy issue in developing countries as India, where many doctors and nurses have migrated overseas due to higher earning capacity (Connel, 2007), thus this effort has been directed to discourage the brain drain India has been facing. There is also a tendency for most of these destination countries to stigmatise nursing as not a profession. These measures continue to encourage locals to attain higher education or work in sectors they have once thought to be unattainable ensuring that the new generation would be skilled and able to work for themselves out of poverty.
Since economic liberalization private hospitals have imported technology and other medical goods to bring their infrastructure on par with their western counter parts. Not only will researchers play a growing part in revolutionising the industry but this is important to meet the growing demand with the increasing number of patients. Smith and Forgione (2007) found that this permitted countries to quickly respond to stimulants and alleviate the provision of services to a broader portion of potential clients. Not only will they continue to be able to provide cheap alternatives but host destinations will strengthen their reputations as medical hubs. This offsets the worry that medical tourists have to countervail quality for cost.
Laws and stricter protocols are essential to safe guard against ethical debates, exploitation and crime. Governments must ensure that because of demands locals do not fall into temptation of immoral methods to gain some monetary incentives. For example, as noted by Wilkinson (2003); the black market organ trade could create secret societies that could harvest from the dead, from living patients at hospitals or go as far as kidnapping healthy looking youths to harvest their organs. Patients requiring organ transplants (most popularly kidney failure patients) are easily seduced by the allure of escapism the black market could offer them. This is especially relevant to first world patients who hear of such offers and would think that they could buy another priceless chance at life at a bargain of the price they estimated. The most effective way is to avoid this formation of a black market would be to ensure that law is heavily enforced by the executive arm of all legal systems. Situations such as these should be avoided due to the grey areas.

SUGGESTIONS AND CAUTION ABLE ISSUES
Like everything else the medical tourism is not short on its flaws. There are certain parts of each sustainable factor that society or governments are unable to control or require more help to make the industry work. Earlier on in this essay we noted that there is a focus on the need to bounce foreign income about the local economy. One main downfall is if the government does not play an extensive part of making sure that all other indirect but crucial aspects of medical tourism are fulfilled. The following paragraphs shall elaborate on gaps the government has to fulfil.
As stated by Leahy (2008) it is suggested that the effect of medical tourism may have potentially distorted the healthcare landscape, thereby disfavouring their own populations. It is seen that healthcare access for so many locals has become more expensive due to the general rise of costs. Woodside and Martin (2008) quote from Ravi Duggal (Ramesh 2005) “For years we have been providing doctors to the Western World. But now they are back home serving foreign patients.” For example, “majority of Indians are at the back of the queue” (ABC report, 2005) when it comes to attaining healthcare. Rural areas have been ignored whilst the rich and private hospitals continue to prosper with the influx of foreign clients. Not only will there me immoral and avoidable deaths but the income gap between the rich and the poor will continue to widen. To counter this there should be redirection of the profit from foreigners to subsidize healthcare costs for locals.
Other indirect factors to medical tourism would mean having to cater to the very basic of tourism. There must be a foundation of tourist information, accommodation and transportation. Kulkarni (2008) notes that a country’s impedimenta from rapid growth could be due to poor infrastructure and lack of quality hotels. There is probably no emphasized need to become a world class tourist site for medical tourism spots however there must be basics. These basics are needed for a visitor to feel comfortable and safe which will then convince them to engage in medical treatments overseas. Also with a bundle of hotels, shopping spots and restaurants those not directly involved with medical tourism would be able to generate profit from these still basically tourist individuals.
It must be stressed that the generation of income from this industry must be circulated to all other tourism related industries. Lack of this has other effects other than continued poverty such as the correlated increase of corruption and discrimination. In the long run this income gap would cause a nation to move backwards into their ancient ways. A country cannot justify the prospect of earning foreign exchange as the main objective of the health policy otherwise there would be major consequences to its own people (Godwin 2004).

CONCLUSION
Medical tourism benefits especially third-world countries by the injection of foreign income into their economy. It provides alternatives for many people in cost, care, environment and other aspects such as spiritual well-being. The foreseeable future of medical tourism is rich if health care in first-world countries continue to privatise. Many companies are investigating the likely potential of cost-savings if they divert medical care abroad (Smith and Forgione, 2008). The trend for undergoing cosmetic surgeries become more and more widely accepted due to the stress for perfection influenced by pop culture will also expand the demand for overseas services. People will no longer be bound by dismay that they have no hope since they are unable to have access to a certain procedure. The success of medical tourism in Asia although has its cracks, has sprung a growing global interest and rivalry. This hopefully generates a string of medical tourism spots that will not only help the host country but push the domestic countries into realizing that they need to invest in cost-saving methods to all in all; create a globalized industry of health care equity.

REFERENCES
ABC. (2005). India—medical tourism. Foreign Correspondent, 8 November, ABC Television.
Bookman, M.Z. & Bookman K.R. (2007). Medical Tourism in Developing Countries. New York City, NY: Palgrave Macmillan
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Lee, C.G. (2009). Heath care and tourism: Evidence from Singapore. Tourism Management, 18(6), doi:10.1016/j.tourman.2009.05.002
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Smith, P. C., & Forgione, D. A. (2008) Global Outsourcing of Healthcare: A Medical Tourism Decision Model. Journal of Information Technology Case and Applications Research, 9(3), 19-30
Sivathasan, C. (2009). Heart Transplantation in Singapore. Annals Academy of Medicine, 38(4), 309-314
Wilkinson, S. (2003). Bodies for Sale: Ethics and Exploitation in the Human Body Trade (1st ed). New York, NY: Routledge
Woodside, A. G. & Martin D., (2008) Tourism management: analysis, behavior and strategy. United Kingdom, Oxfordshire: CABI

Greys. Dance

It's been hell of a hectic week, with numerous deadlines, a tired heart and the incredible zombie-d lack of sleep. The week really seems to run pass when you're forced up on your tip toes and as tired as you possibly are, there's always the invisible arm that drags you around by the neck.

Today's my last deadline for the week I arose naturally to the sunlight seeping in. It felt so good, I feel so inexpressively explosively good and happy. Took my time to let my body rise as my eye lashes danced along with the floating waltzing specks of dust. I cuddled up to myself, breathed in the scent of an invisible person. My body treasured the chance to get some time off from mindless sprinting and my mind appreciated the cell refuel. I practically danced my way through the morning with Toe (crazy love for the instrumental band recently) in the background. And today's drizzle was God sent, the day looked so pretty.

I've finally seen the world in a way I haven't in a long time but should be seeing constantly.

Then I got it. I finally realized it was right in my face all along.

RIP: Nujabes

Seba Jun, aka Nujabes, Reported Dead at 36

According to an announcement posted today on Hydeout Productions, DJ and hip hop producer Nujabes passed away late last month in a car accident at the age of 36.

Nujabes, whose real name is Seba Jun, is remembered as one of the premiere producers in the underground hip-hop scene. His philosophical, atmospheric music spanned beyond his native Japan. He has done collaborations with British and American artists such as CYNE's Cise Star (Lady Brown) and Substantial (Think Different). He is perhaps most widely recognized for his work on the soundtrack of Samurai Champloo.

His production company notes that he had been working on several tracks, which they hope to piece together and release as his final work.

Oakland-based music artist and collaborator Shingo Annen, known as Shing02, was among the first to break the somber news to the American hip-hop community. His post can be read here.

Whatever may have been lost in Google's Japanese to English translation of Hydeout's announcement, the text somehow poetically describes his passing: Without having to raise the heartbeat again, took off into the sky.

What fucking sick tragedy is this? It's like the ripper suddenly decided to work overtime with all the great people dying recently.
Nujabes will be ridiculously missed as my trip-hop God.

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9x – 7i > 3 (3x – 7u).

Find i.



Answer: i<3u.

Right Wake Up

I hate getting the feeling of being so tired that your body parts fall asleep.
I woke up and fell flat on my face literally, seriously. Just cause my right leg wouldn't wake up and couldn't fulfill it's job of supporting my weight. So we (my leg and I) sat at the edge of my bed for darn long. I took a shower sitting down on the shower floor and at the end I still had to stumble around to get dressed.

We were late for 20 minutes. On the train on the way to school right leg fell asleep again. I almost fell in front of tens of commuters.

Emotional Punching Bag

I always find myself stuck in people's problems, always given the annoying role of being the mediator or the decider.

I was going to go out to Obar with Jeannette cause I'm an obvious sellout for a cheap high then it turned into a daughter-stop-mother-from-doing-something-stupid night.
She called me out to go drink with her and I hung up on her and made cancellation calls and reports to my dad. When I'd finally gotten a chance to call her back she thought she was second place and there starts the emotional blackmail.
My dad had done to look for her first so the 3 of us sat at the country club with her sipping on long island tea without coke and with horrible country music in the background.

She starts her depressed state of mind with opinions that don't change and expectations that are supposed to be lived after - there is no sign of gratitude when achieved. I never understood how someone this sad could be this blind and two-faced.
Boy does she ruin love and marriage for me with what I know is utter bullshit but is supported by years and years of accumulation and cause and effect.

It's a pity that she's so cold and hard now when we're not that different. She tried to harden my heart, she tried to position me into avoidance of the opposite sex, she tried to love me as much as she possibly could; all as effort to make sure I wouldn't end up like her. Swept up and over, married and lost it all again.
The complexity of the marriage between my parents is still cosmic and unbound which still have affected the way I thought and still think about life and love especially.
I end up being the emotional punching bag for both of them when they get sick of bruising each other.

Anyhow I ended up drinking by the bar next door while waiting for her to finish her jackpot nonsense. I was drinking by myself and so hurt and upset by the things she says I stole $2 from my mum just so I could buy cigarettes off people.
I was so happy that the members of my country club would let me just take a cigarette after cigarette off them. I think I drank almost a tower of beer got exhausted and went to the jackpot room that looked like an elderly home to have free congee. Eventually I got my high from ringing machines mum home.

Some night...

Stabby Stab Stab

I was having the worst day at work. I felt overworked, out of control and totally stressed out. I was the only bar staff around today and had to run around a lot.

Even though I got one of the floor staff to help me pour beer she was also much too sick for her to help me do anything else. I felt super exhausted already and called for the last order but they kept coming in one after another that I had to reprint so many bills.
Plus my boss was holding onto the inventory and lots of the bottles weren't back at the bar for me to close the bottle book entries. By the time I had finished everything it was already 50 minutes past closing time when I had started cleaning the bar and did everything on time just nice for a (at most) 20 minute delay.

At 1.50AM I was calling for two of my girls to get into the cab with me home but some customer was still flirting with her and didn't let lose of his hold on her. Oh I snapped... I started spilling vulgarities to the general public and complaining that I have school and a 4 damn deadlines waiting for me. I'm so glad that guy was still sober enough to give a shit about me and my tantrum.
I had never lost my temper at work before and oh the guilt killed me when I got home.

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I'm never ever telling a penis how wide my hips are anymore. Everyone's doing that "WHAT YOU ARE BIGGER THAN ME? HARHAHAHAR."
I'm 2 inches away from having a 10inch difference between my hips and waist. I'm curvy that's it. But got no boobs. But it's okay. Oh fuck you.

Merry Black

My period is finally over that's why I'm so happy today. So fuck you all.

I don't know what hit me so badly I normally never ever get hit by hormones that make me wanna go crazy. Whatever the turn of situation is I shall not over analyze and think too much about things or what others think of me. Cause I know some things aren't in my control and well maybe I'm just a little different/strange/weird then. I wish not to be judged upon the basis of someone else when I haven't even gotten a chance to prove myself. Then again there is always the suspected fear and precaution we're all partaking which I hope will die down and disintegrate.

Anyway the day was clammy, wet and refreshing. I took the opportunity to dress in black sheer knee high socks, a gray lace dress, black cardigan, tortoise shell kitten heels, brown messenger and my little black umbrella. I was obviously overdressed for school as compared to my normal lazy days. But I was happy so happy. I don't know why this is blog worthy but I am happy, so so so so happy.

I Think Bloody Beetroots Was Rolling

Warp warp twins for the win.

Honey I Got Diamonds On My VaJJ

Vajazzled

This brings a whole new term to blingin' everything.

You Used To Hold Me

Calvin Harris isn't one of the artists I would purposely play when I start up my iPod but this song has been getting into me a lot recently.


Artist: Calvin Harris
Track from Album: Ready For The Weekend

Knocked down everything I tried to do | That sounds something like me holding you | I've known this can make you understand | Take my spirit from my open hand

You used to hold me| You used to hold me | You used to hold me me me me, yeah

You know better than I do.

Emergency Skincare

I've been working with Rash a lot at the bar recently and she's on a mission to cut down and eventually quit smoking. She's been trying to scare with me with how old I would start looking; with wrinkles, bad teeth and haggard eyes plastered to my face.
Most of the time I stare at her, laugh and walk out to enjoy my senescence causing stick.

When there's nothing much to do I don't like to look stupid standing at the bar having to diligently stare at the glasses of customers and shoving the next round to them. When there's too much to do, I would take the next open opportunity to shift my weight from my braving feet to my underused ass. Either way it means I gotta smoke and smoke even more. I smoke the most when I'm working.

Then today I had a good long stare at myself when I was sitting on the sink counter with my feet soaked in warm water and I felt I looked awful.

I rushed downstairs to eat any form of supplement I could find. Vitamin C, calcium, cod liver oil, evening primrose and iron pills.
I also started this 6 step face care regime.

Of course I let Rash have the last laugh when I told her of my frantic antics.

Wheel The Dumbbell

Sometimes I really hate hanging out with Rachel my unintentional bimbocity is always at its peak. I'll complain about something and then she comes up with the most obvious solution that dazzles in its brilliance of simplicity. PFFT baby I hate you.